I want to just cry. I want to hate her but hate is not an emotion that my body handles too well. How dare she come back into my life a few monthes short of a year later and try to tell me those three words that she not too long ago took away from me.
She was the first person I ever loved, she was the first who ever made me feel like I could not live without another her by my side.. if that makes sense. I cried almost every single day that we were dating because she would find some reason to be mad at me, some way to make me feel as though I had done something wrong, some way to make me feel like the dirt on the ground. I let her walk all over me because I loved her. Honestly and purely. But I was nothing to her. She cheated on me, she lied, I took the blame for her so many times that I almost got sent to jail for it. Now she comes back telling me that she never stopped loving me?
I just want to not believe her and shrug it off but she was my first love and it did hit me like a ton of bricks. I will admit though, there was once she loved me. For a short period of time, before I left her, I saw it in her eyes, I felt it in her body movements. But by then I was already in love with another and moving on. Now I just have to clear my head and think of how to shrug this all off.